Amelia is, by all accounts, a miracle. Her tracing never looked great on the monitor, which ended up being the result of a tight true knot in her umbilical cord. Another day in utero, and she wouldn't be with us.
I carried a lot of guilt around delivering so early. I felt like I had failed her by not being able to carry her longer. Like it was somehow my fault that she had to come so early. That's a feeling that I think a lot of us don't want to admit.
